Today I sat on my mat for a while and was able to just be present. That does not usually happen for me. I’m busy, distracted, there are always things to do.
I plunked a single drop of Frankincense (carterii) at the top centre of my mat and a few drops of Frankincense (sacra) in my diffuser. These oils pull me down to the ground and also crack my emotions wide open. Today, though, they were the right combination of soothing and yummy.
Yoga and meditation have long since been a part of my life, although, I must admit, fleetingly at times. Since our move to the Okanagan ten months ago I think I can safely say my practice in both areas has been the least consistent since the first time I ever laid eyes on a yoga mat. There has been space created for other areas in my life like our marriage, growing our beautiful team and learning everything we could about continuing to grow and support our business. So when I did take a minute to sit on my mat in these last months, it usually wasn’t focused or quite as meaningful.
Today, I felt compelled to shake off my mat and roll it out over the floor. I let the flow of my body just take me wherever felt good. Sun salutations, triangle pose, pigeon (of course, of course!), warrior 2, warrior 3, twisting in and out without even thinking. I kept my eyes closed almost the whole time and I just let the flow take me until I was in a seated position. I let my hands fall to my thighs and I crossed my shins over one another. Instantly I could feel the energy in the form of heat tingling through my hands to my thighs and both buzzed just slightly where they connected. Where there was contact.
It was so interesting to be in this moment. I was noticing connection in a time when there has been an emptiness or space I felt perhaps lacking this emotion to connectedness. It took me to write this blog for me to figure out what that lesson was, because there is always a lesson I take away from my meditation practice. Sometimes it comes to me right then and there, but sometimes it can take days. Today it took making lunch and a cup of chai tea after my playful, sensitive and freeing practice. The connection I have been lacking was from within me.